I created this page because I know what it feels like to be scared of your own mind.

I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia when I was 19 years old. At that time, I was taking energy pills that kept me awake and made it hard for me to sleep. Lack of sleep, not eating well, and stress affected my mind in a way I did not understand back then.

Years later, when I was around 40, I started using crystal meth. What shocked me was that the episodes felt very similar to what I had experienced when I was younger: not sleeping, not eating, feeling disconnected from reality, and not knowing how to explain what was happening inside my head.

I also learned that when you already live with bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, or any serious mental health condition, lack of sleep, lack of food, drugs, stress, and not taking medication correctly can make symptoms much worse.

I am not creating this page because I think I know everything.

I am creating it because I lived through this for years.

I know what it feels like to be confused, ashamed, scared, judged, or misunderstood. I know what it feels like when your family does not know what to do, when doctors use words you do not fully understand, and when you are trying to figure out if what you are feeling is real or part of an episode.

This page is not here to replace doctors, medication, therapy, emergency help, or professional treatment.

This page is here to explain things in simple words, from one person who has lived it to another person who might be going through it right now.

My hope is that this space can feel like a small mental health first aid kit: a quiet place to breathe, understand, and take the next safe step without shame.

You are not crazy.